Expectations

You ever get that feeling where someone tells you something and you expect them to follow through with it?  Only to find out later that they couldn't do what they told you they would do for you?  It's a little confusing I know, but I guess I just wanted to share something along these lines.

Due to unfortunate circumstances, I couldn't keep my word.  He was expecting to see me, and instead I didn't pull through.  Unintentionally of course, but still I made him wait.  That WAS the problem.

He felt out of it and I kept bugging him to tell me what was wrong.  Finally he admitted that he was "irked" because I had left him expecting but in the end he waited for nothing.  He wasn't angry because he knew I had been really busy with meetings here and there, practice, etc.  I'm completely worn out.  But even then he said he appreciated the things I do for him.  He told me he didn't want to bring it up because he knew it would only initiate an argument and he didn't want to fight with me.

Normally, it's true.  I would feel that it's unfair and that he's not understanding that I was really tired or that I really had tried my best.  But I took it differently.  I became more understanding and really listened to what he was feeling.  I told him that he was right.  I did leave him hanging and that I was sorry.  I honestly do feel guilty.

After a few more texts, things got better really fast.  I explained to him how I felt guilty and how I feel like I let him down.  In return, he surprised me by saying "You didn't let me down.  Don't think of it like that."  From there, we patched things up in a matter of 30 minutes to an hour.  All through text.

What did I learn from this experience?  Aside from the fact that we care too much about each other to stay arguing (although we didn't this time), I learned that long distance is hard.  Taking it day by day is the best thing to do right now.  But I think it's pretty amazing how we were able to communicate to one another in a civil manner, understand what the other person was saying, and in some way know what the other was feeling.  AND ALL THROUGH TEXTING.

The power of communication I tell yah.